Simplistic Notion

I know things are rough……

……but it doesn’t mean i’ll quit. I’ve waited too long and Im not going to just get up and walk away. Yes its hard. Yes there’s problems….but I promise you this….I won’t give up on you…..I wont give up on us.

blast from the past

Went back to my myspace after years of not touching it. it’s funny how I used to think. How I used to be. Puts a smile on my face though. seems like I’mmoving in the direction i need to. :) 

“I Shall Proceed and Continue”

….change..

November 28, 2009

In life, change is the only constant. One way or another we all change. Yet, we ourselves are the sole controllers of whether these changes are more damaging or beneficial to ourselves. I won’t lie, i’ve changed. My motivation has been now more self perpetuated in order to further myself rather than how I was before it seems. 
      
          I used to have something that I was striving for that would push me and motivate me to better myself. It was something i’ve had eyes on since my early chilhood. Everything I did was to help further myself in order to attain that goal. Alas, I truly thought at one point i’ve gotten there but soon found myself lying flat on my back as if it was pulled right out from under me. I was totally defeated……thinking to myself that all i’ve done was for nothing. From there I was stuck in a slump. Unable to get back up on my feet for at the time, what was there to keep fighting for? Hysterically enough, I knew from the start that it was never to be. It was like reaching for the stars. I knew that it was to be an inevitable ending for me, but I had to try anyway. I was determined………or ignorant. 
       
          Eventually, I got myself back up and found a new route to take. I became wiser. Taking what had happened as a lesson and a cornerstone in my life. Dwelling on a loss doesn’t get you anywhere. So I learned, adapted and moved on to pursue a much more greater goal for myself. But still I can’t help but look back on it and think how close I was. So many times, even now, I felt like going back and pursuing what should’ve been. Those countless nights of sitting, waiting, and wishing yet with that goal only existing in my dreams. 
        
          As I continued to progress, I can’t help but think that maybe it was just never meant and that the actual goal itself could not size up to the lessons i’ve learned to get there. What I did to better myself has somehow shaped me into being a better person. I became more focused, did better is school, learned to cherish and pay attention to all the little things which, in the long run, mattered. It was as if in my adversity, I subconsciously learned some of the most essential things in life. Seemed like reaching for the stars had gotten me far, even if I never really did touch the stars. What was at first to be my ignorance turned out to be a blessing in disguise.
        
         God truly works in mysterious ways. I mean what else could it be? There’s no way science can give me a logical explanation to such. It just goes to show you that our ups and downs are just musical notes on god’s symphony we call life. No matter how bad life gets, remember that in the end, God will make everything unravel as it should.
         
          To sum it all up, life is everchanging. We have no control over it but we can control how we take change. Take it positively for everything happens for a reason. Just don’t let it overwhelm you. If you dwell on mistakes and untimely change, you’ll never be able to move forward. I wrote this as a reflection of myself from this nearly ending year. I’m on my way up and I won’t let anything bring me down. To whoever’s reading this, I hope I have opened you to look at life more optimistically. This way life becomes easier for all of us. I appreciate your time in reading this. One Love.



                                                                                  -Sonny Saldua

Dear Tumblr……

Im in no use of you no more. You don’t entertain me. This will be the last I speak of you until I find reason to pick you up again. Just like life, everything is everchanging. Nothing is ever expected to stay the same….Agyamanak!!!!!!!!!!!!